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{25:6} And in this mountain shall the LORD of hosts make unto all people a feast of fat things, a feast of wines on the lees, of fat things full of marrow, of wines on the lees well refined.
{25:7} And he will destroy in this mountain the face of the covering cast over all people, and the vail that is spread over all nations.
{25:8} He will swallow up death in victory; and the Lord GOD will wipe away tears from off all faces; and the rebuke of his people shall he take away from off all the earth: for the LORD hath spoken [it.]
{25:9} And it shall be said in that day, Lo, this [is] our God; we have waited for him, and he will save us: this [is] the LORD; we have waited for him, we will be glad and rejoice in his salvation.–Isaiah

Sassafras albidum

My sister died this morning, I am posting photos of her below.


In Orange, Virginia with husband Sam.


Warrenton Virginia with Sam and her childhood dog Atlas.


Sam, Gray and Sam in California


Sam Coale, Gray Coale and Captain Emory on the bank of the River Ouse


with her adult hound, Ariel.


visiting in Charlottesville


In the seat of of happiness, Jane’s kitchen


Gray was diagnosed with inoperable pancreatic cancer in November of ’09.
Gray never asked the Doctor about prognosis, never Googled. She went about her life. I had a lot of ideas early on about how she should deal with her cancer but I managed to keep my mouth shut and follow her lead.

Lead she did. Gray worked her way through chemo (Gemzar, Tarceva and Cisplatin), never lost any hair, never lost her appetite, managed to fold all the medical appointments into her approach to life. (Made a lot of new friends, chemo-suite folk, doctors, nurses, custodians, ultra-sound and radiation therapy techs, she’d ask them about themselves and remember their info.)

We all think of denial as a bad thing, I think Freud taught us to do that, and then Elisabeth Kubler-Ross didn’t exactly promote the value of denial. But I read an article recently in the Washington Post which touted the benefit of denial with a diagnosis that borders on a death sentence.

I wanted to tell my friends and family about Gray’s diagnosis, asked her if that was all right, she said no. She wanted the same interaction with the world that she’d always had. I largely honored her request.

Gray’s quality of life was good for 13 months after diagnosis, but a month ago, the pancreatic cancer figured out the mechanics of metastasis, spread to her liver, stomach, lungs and bone. Secondary to that spread, she got massive edema in her legs. For the first time her mobility was compromised.

She went in to consult with her oncologist February 7 and understood there was nothing curative left in the pharmacopoeia to try. She went to hospice that same day, switching from curative to palliative care. She said she felt safe in hospice.

No pain, no fear.

May she rest in peace and rise in glory.
July 11, 1951-February 25, 2011


In lieu of flowers, please make donations to the Gray E. Coale Memorial Garden at Swan Point. Please make checks payable to Swan Point Cemetery, 585 Blackstone Boulevard, Providence, RI 02906. The idea is a grove of sourwoods (Oxydendrum arboreum), some other natives, and a place to sit and listen to the wind.
The funeral will be held at St. Martin’s Church, 50 Orchard Avenue, Providence, RI on Thursday, March 3, at 11:00 AM.

Mother and Daughter


I just cant believe its so,
And though it seems strange to say
I never been laid so low
In such a mysterious way
And the course of a lifetime runs
Over and over again–Paul Simon

family

A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
(45% of the royalties for the song are donated to the Israeli Committee Against House Demolitions, because, in Seeger’s own words, “[in addition to the music] I did write six words)–Wikipedia
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reliquary


Origin:
1175–1225;  ME < OF relique  < L reliquiae  (pl.) remains (> OE reliquias ), equiv. to reliqu ( us ) remaining + -iae  pl. n. suffix
in this picture, Jim Orr, Bill Underwood, Bill, Edith, ferocactus, darkroom, time, light, atmosphere, Baltimore, quercus macrocarpa, Mac, Emma Gray, Saint Stephen’s, 1943, Holcombe, Quincy, Steve Ashby, dreaded Xmas letter, it is all there. All time all the time.

Twymans Mill

hoping Frank Stringfellow Walker can supply the name of the stream next to Twymans Mill
On the left bank, north bank of Great Run. Post-office, gas station, cultural repository.
Twymans is an unincorporated community in Madison County, Virginia. Listen to the names:
Achash, Aroda, Aylor, Banco, Beaver Park, Big Meadows, Brightwood, Burnt Tree | Criglersville | Decapolis | Duet | Elly | Etlan | Five Forks | Fletcher | Fordsville | Graves Mill | Haywood | Hood | Kinderhook | Leon | Locust Dale | Madison Mills | Nethers | Novum | O’Neal | Oakpark | Oldrag | Pratts | Radiant | Repton Mills | Rochelle | Ruth | Shelby | Shifflet Corner | Syria | Tanners | Tryme | Twymans Mill | Uno | Waylandsburg | Wolftown | Zeus–Wikipedia